Can you imagine going to work, or to the grocery store or church and seeing men wearing skirts? Now imagine how our world would have to change for skirt-wearing men to be the norm. There would be gender equality and a balance of power? Pink and blue beanies would not be the uniform at birth? A lot would have to change in our country to see men comfortable enough to wear skirts.
The change going on in OUR lives isn’t quite as dramatic, but sometimes it feels like it is. We are letting go of all things familiar, jobs, family, neighbors, friends, a home of almost 18 years in a city where I’ve lived since I was 22 years old. I am getting rid of the old, the borrowed and the blue. And I wonder why I feel tense. One week I blog about being fearless and the next, about being stressed out. Arghhhhhhhh.
Because I am committed to honesty I tell you that this is NOT easy. Even though we both want it, have planned it, are excited about the move and the life that we are going to, my body somehow resists. I have been to the doctor who told me that my heart and BP are fine. I meditate, exercise, eat well and get enough sleep. Am I scared? I can’t imagine of what. We have no deadlines really. Things will work out fine however they do. “This too shall pass” is my mantra. I also tell myself that feeling this pressure in my chest is NOT a character flaw. I cannot control the anxiety I feel as much as I want to argue with my body that, “this doesn’t make sense!!” It is what it is and sharing my experience with you helps relieve the pressure. I don’t KNOW it all and I don’t want to appear as if I’ve got it all figured out, because I DON’T. There is a message here that I want to be open to. Perhaps if I do more listening than talking I will hear what it is. This last thought only came to me as I wrote it now. So I get to be fearless in listening to my body. I’ll let you know how that goes.
Enjoying a Sunny Lake Bacalar Day
My Daughter’s Wedding 5/13
the adventures of dos tortas 
To take it one step further, Alex, what if men could give birth? That would really change a lot of things! And your little bit of anxiety is only normal as you are embarking upon a new life with all that that entails. Heck, now that we have been here so long, we get a little anxious contemplating our trips back to the States as that is outside our norm, now.
Buena suerte, amiga!
Cheers!
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Thank you Bruce. We’ve already booked our first flight FROM Mexico to the US & back again. It really looked backward on the confirmation. LOL. I really appreciate your support.
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You should live in Seattle. lots of men wear skirts(kilts) and just like skirts some can do it with style and some not so much. Oh well, we are all loveable and worth loving. Even when we are scared. It is so hard to let go and trust. I know this myself so deeply. So I am holding your hand in my heart.
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I realized that someone (Garth) would point out that men wear skirts. However, it’s far from the norm. And you are right, letting go & trusting is not a mental process. I also hold your hand in my heart.
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Oh I know exactly what you mean. I keep saying I am not scared, I know I am but not a scared scary scared but more like a exciting scared getting on a roller coaster scared. I love roller coasters but right before my heart is pounding so hard that it feels it will burst out of my chest any second. For the past month I have felt like I am about to get on a rollercoaster from the time my eyes open in the morning until I am in a deep sleep at night. Hope your stress level takes a leap of the cliff soon!
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I love you analogy Nancy. It is an exciting scared. The difference is breathing….stay in touch. A
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